Cherylganjx♥[: says:

I just wanna be me. Can I?



the new life, with the same me.

It's one of the most tiring process
     

If you dont know what you want,
If you dont get the results you expected.
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Plan for your future early.


Im so glad it's going to be over soon.

This really marks the end of my Secondary School days.
which means .......   Its only just the beginning of a new chapter. 

Is it  why I have been tearing for no reason for yesterday and the day before? 
I have got no idea. :)

To all the people out there,
I have got 19pts for my L1R2B2, :)
and Im proud of it. :D
momma's proud of it. :D

So there's 3 more days for me to register. thinking hard, very very hard infact.

Thanks teachers, :) you rock, simply rock. Still the best.
Momma, you rock a zillion times more. & you know it. better than i do. :D

And now,

Im finally here at this page. (Not navigating away.)
Typing something. LOL.


ANYWAYSSSS.....
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL! :D

It has really been a very nice 2009.
I dont know about you guys.

I spend my very last day of 2009 with my dearest family members. :) 
& at that instant i thought to myself,
They played a really big role in my life.
not only in 2009. since 1993 and in the years to come.

I remember at the beginning of year.
Where I had really bad gastric and was sent to hospital.
and it was two days before SYF.
Mummy was the one who supported me through the whole thing.
From the waking her up in the middle of the night,
To holding me to the taxi,
To bringing me to the hospital,
To stay with me in the hospital,
To only leave until I fall asleep,
To come the very next morning to accompany me,
To helping me be discharged from the hospital,
To buying flowers for sir,
To Bringing me to school for last rehearsal,
To going to Singapore Conference Hall to support the band and I.
To sending me off in the bus back to school.

This is how wonderful my mom could be. :) 

During my O level period,
my mom pays for my tuition fees. ( they are really expensive)
my brother helped me by offering help through my study period.
my sister encourages me by writing little notes to me through my study period.
my dad lowers the tv volume when im studying :) 

And I just came back from the very fun korea trip.
I definitely saw snow. :D (YAY! thanks momma!)
When Skiing, took the ride of my life. :) 
But it was really cold. heehee.
I enjoyed the trip very very much :D
KIMCHI ROCKS! lol. (not really) heehee.

& to you, all friends, teachers, colleagues. thanks for making my 2009 a very meaningful one. :D 

Cheers to 2010. :D

-no photos-
another post perhaps :D

I reached this page now
& I still cant seem to pen down my thoughts.

): what's wrong.

I wish the night passes quickly.
At least there's band tmr, (:

my 4 pretty years in Henderson Secondary School was like a roller coaster ride.
just got to ride, all night long :)

Brief summary

Secondary 1 - Wonderful Form Teacher, Mdm Abby Choo. (lovely momma)
                          Crazy Classmates, :D 1E2 ROCKS!
                          RV clique. 
                          EL LAP modules :D
                          Innocent little things.
                          Bothered by LOVE LOVE things. -.- XD
                          HSSCB! Clarinetist! then Saxophonist! :) 
                          Trainee Prefect :D

Secondary 2 - 2E2'09 
                          Friendship problems ): 
                          Ms Chandran's Science lessons in Science Lab! :D
                          English LAP modules :D
                          Bothered by Love still. -.- 
                         SYF' 07 (Bronze)
                         Where Cheryl had juniors. (scary but i love them a lot)
                         Band investiture @ PAC. :D [STICK TO THE STATUS QUO]
                          HSSCB, Asst UIC! (: 
                          Prefect :D

Secondary 3 - Band Major :D (extremely proud to be. 1 band, 1 sound, 1 family) 
                          Deputy Head Prefect (extremely honoured. :D)
                          Formation of DJ3 :D
                          Combined Science, Geog, SS, POA. 
                          Mrs Leong :D (Nag out of love;]) 
                          Plenty of UPs and DOWNs. 
                          STILL bothered by love. 
                          Mrs Yeo's Farewell concert.
                          HONGKONG TRIP!:D:D:D:D
                          NCO CAMP! :D 
                          HECTIC, BUSY, TIRING, DEPRESSING, HAPPY, FUN, many many many.

Secondary 4 - SYF'09 SILVER ( I LOVE HSSCB) and i miss them.
                          4E3. :D 
                          CRAZY CLASS! :D 
                          I LOVE MATHS! & the golden monkeys ( & now separated): its ok, lets continue to work hard)
                          STEPPED DOWN. 
                          Wonderful Bday celebration :D
                          Student councillor.
                          Senior councillor. 
                          My Love came into my life. 180793
                          Representative of class 4E3 for graduation day ceremony. 
                          BIG Os coming my way.


Graduation Day Ceremony. + Touching and reliving Videos + Inspiring and motivating Speeches + Words of encouragement + Songs + Love :) 
Thanks for all the memories.
Thanks daddy & mommy
Thanks teachers.
For everything. <3

Had this dream quite long ago,
I was performing alone on stage with a guitar.
Singing the song, : Time of your life.
And i have always wanted to do that on graduation day.
TOO BAD CHERYL. gone.
But the song was played on Mdm Linda's video montage. (: really nice.
and Mr Chia, THATS WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR.
Friendship is truly the one of the most essential thing in your secondary school days. Or actually everyday. :)


HENDERSON ROCKS. BIG TIME. since the moment I stepped into this school.

Who are Friends? 
What are Friends?
What do Friends do?

Dictionary's definition of a Friend : Noun. A person whom likes and trust.

I believe deep down in our hearts the definition of friends could be more than just that.
The person who stand by you always.
The person who you can count on.
The person who knows you well enough.
The person who spends hours and days and weeks and months and years with you.
The person who gives you tissue when you cry.
The person who always encourages you.
The person who cares for you when you're sick.
The person who ask if you're ok when you're not.
The person who makes you laugh all the time.
The list goes on and on...

But to me, a friend, (even though its not my only definition of friends) be it close to me physically or not. Is always a person who could be felt using your HEART.
No matter how far the distance is.
No matter if its three seats away, at the end of the class, two classes apart, one block apart, 10 schools apart, 10536miles apart.
You would still feel his/her presence in your heart all the time.
They would definitely be there supporting in your heart.
We need not be next to each other,
right Shiqi? :D (awww, i miss you.)

For Friends are meant to be cherish, for who they are and what they are. Respect them like how they would respect you.
Treat them how you want them to treat you. Love one another. Care for one another.

Even though Friends are bound to quarrel, fight, bicker, its always about small misunderstandings growing into a big snowball. Suddenly when you cant take it, BOOM! and there it goes. Take a step back look at the bigger picture. Think, Reflect  and see if you've done anything wrong. Learn to change. I admit at times I dont reflect and think and have hurt a lot of my friends but Slowly and surely, things would be better if you start talking about yourself first before talking about others.

When you feel like giving up, think about why you hang on for so long in the first place. (:

TO ALL MY LOVELY FRIENDS OUT THERE,
YOU'RE CHERISHED BY CHERYLGANJX :) CHEERS! 

Focus, Trust.
It's time to focus.

You know yourself very well,
dont let mummy down.

Happy Birthday MOMMA! the wind beneath my wings,
Thanks for everything that you've done.
I cant love you enough, :)

Yesterday went out with pigu, go buy stuff.
then went to met sister & marilyn. 
Marilyn drove us there. :D
to go to Shangri la hotel for dinner. as it was mama's bday. :D
ate @ the line, superb food.
Laughter filled the table,
All five of us experienced traffic jam in our stomachs, :D
inside joke
went to sing k after that the one near SCH, singapore conference hall. :D 
sang till like 12+, bathed waited for hair to dry about 1.45am.
slept.


Woke up :D watched tv.
daddy cooked wanton mee, felt so full.
then went to do a bit of work.... lol.
but soon went to bathed,
waited for mom both of us left house.
went to visit grandma :D
she's ok, :) lose a lot of weight ): havent been eating and sleeping well.
then went to pearl centre to get my specs fixed.
woohooo, i can see so clearly now :D yay!
then went to swensens and eat. saw these two koreans. damn funny.
talk to mummy, a lot things, its great to have such a good mom.
I hope she's feeling better for she has such a good daughter like me. :D hahaha, what crap.
she's like my friemily:D (friend & family). LOL! sister learnt this and told me.
hahahaha, great bonding time today...

Mummy, believe me that everything will be fine. :)
*she's currently behind me, ironing my uniform :D*

I hate this feeling very much.
If you dont wish to, then dont.

I'll stop right here & not move.
I'll wait till my eyes contains no more tears.
I'll wait and stop here, till you tell me what to do.
cause Im lost,confused.
I dont know what you need,
I dont know what you want,
I dont know what's holding you back, 
I dont know what's going,
I dont know what's happening in you,
I dont know why I'm still trying my bestest,
I dont know why...

I dont.  

sorry,
then i must truly be dumb.
hahaha, but its ok. who cares right?

all the best,
because i dont know how to do it anymore.
im so tired. you didnt know.
im so depressed you didnt know.

if not you then who?

My Family<3
My Dearest Dj2.
My loveliest BuinMichelle,
Mr Law.
Janel,Eddy,Geraldine.
Janice,Fiona,Bel,Jueyu.
Kimberly, Fiona Lor, Eugenia.
XiuJing.

Everybody who sent me smses, wishes, thankyou so much! you guys truly made my day. XIEXIENI! :D
Heart Felt thanks to you guys, :D

This is for Rafidah, Dhurkesh, Alfred, Janel, Mr Law. THANKYOU for that surprise yesterday, love it loads. had a lot of fun being an idiot. HAHAHAHA! and mom who got crazy with them.

Bestest 16th birthday, :)

Pictures would be upload soon, =x
a lot of work to do!

post tmr, as promised.
very tired now. =x sorry.

I've tried my best, everytime i tried to open my mouth but i cnt.
when i finally got to, things like this happen.
so, i dont think there's even a need to open it anymore.

You didnt know, I was willing to walk through this with you.
You must be thinking that im truly dumb, hahaha.
maybe i am.
i only cause trouble, cause people feel bad, freaking useless.
im such a jackass.

but its hard for me to accept the fact that
you truly do not have the trust in me.
but what can i do? 



gonna start science tuition today, cant believe I have to start it with this kind of mood.
oh well, i'll keep trying till i die.

Yesterday went to NP Concert Band Concert Ripieno.
Excellent concert :D
Got to learn a lot from them, both good points & bad points :) 
the difference between a poly band and secondary school band.
many many many points for me to note.
but the concert was awesome.
Well done eddy! :D well done Jo! :D

Today, woke up, started doing my work.
truly pissed with the whole family today, *maybe its PMS *
My head hurts like shit. -.- (this has been going on for a few days already) 
so i decided to play the keyboarddddd. :D
so now im using the COMPUTERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
gonna work very soon after i bathe or something like that.
then upload pics i took yesterday. :)

meeting fidah tmr, to work. yup. excellent children i know. :D

ahhhhh, i miss band ): truly madly deeply.

HELLOOOO! its the second day of school today. :D
Quite a number of changes.
in our timetable and teachers.
yup. I feel so motivated.
I hope i dont get any distractions. hahahhaa! 
maybe i should go home straight after school.
or stay outside staff room, but .... ok nvm. 
 
I LOVE SCHOOL! 
gonna make the best out of it. YAY!. :D
LOVE mommy :D

This holidays are special. :D
Because, it will be my last break before the final sprint in my secondary school days. (: 
I have done more things than i have expected, i mean work. hahaha.
that's good.

& this weekend, i spend most of my time with mummy(:
she really funny. duh, my mom.

I have actually learnt a lot this holidays,
be it, physically, mentally, spiritually, in academic work, in BAND, in prefects, in relationships. :D
i shall just keep this lessons close to my heart.
JIAYOU JIAXIN!

If this is how you want it, dont blame me.

is family day.
daddy cooked his famous, WANTONMEE! :D
then mummy bought durian.
WOW, im getting really fatter and fatter, omg.
hahahaha, in the midst of doing. errr. POA? ya. :D
laopo's back today. :D misses! xoxo.


chiong work chiong chiong chiong,
but i dont seem to be doing it, i dont know why. argh, damn it.


L, you know i know, that i love you very very very much, stay strong. everything's going to be fine :D

Saturday, 13th June.
Went with janice & $ to mac to do work :D

Sunday 14th June.
Fathers' day celebration. :D
went to Marriot hotel for buffet. NICE! the food! :D
then went home, watched BOF. OMG! :O! (: haha.
then around 6 + went to tiong to catch, Night at the museum 2.
Its very nice & funny, hmmm. why people say not funny leh? LOL.

Monday, 15th June
Out with Best Butt, Shiqi to watch the Hannah Montana movie!
walked around Plaza Sing.
She had to go off for tuition.
We had hell load of fun, ha, right shiqi? :D
then headed down to laopo's house (: heehee!
homed. (:

Tuesday, 16th June
Suppose to be meeting up with lydia. but. she cnt make it. lol.
headed down to laopo's house with janice to do agar agar for XJ's bday party. :D
Played Piano, watched BOF. (when i first start watching BOF, i slept at 4am, its truly addicting.)
LOL! (: homed. something happened, cried. Laopo, ask me about this. (: 

Wednesday, 17th June
HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIUJING! :D 
went tiong at 11? ya, met fidah. to do. chemistry :D LOL!
then went to buy xiujing's present :D LOL!
then went BK to do it. :D then comes jo and dawn. LOL. scaring the hell out of me. =x
talked talked. then head down to henderson waves. (: 
sang,ate cake, played, continued singing, took hundreds of photos.
went vivo, ate. played, talked about BOF! :D
homed.(:

Thursday, 18th June.
Went to school at 9? yup. with fidah.
soon after fiona came & xiujing.
then kim, then alfred, then dinesh or mandy.
THEN CASH, you really should have informed us first. -.-
cleared the room? played omg, whats that game called. AH! i dont rmb. o.O ok nvm.
then after that headed to mac with DJ2.
crapped, & janel, her sis and dad came along. hahaha!
then worked. went home about 6. (:

Friday, 19th June.
Basically, I worked & had tuition. (: 

TODAY! saturday, 20th June.
woke up & missed laopo.
did things at home.
Xiaojiujiu & his god son came to pass me some stuff. (:
His godson is damn CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
then met lydia at interchange, on the way, i saw my face in the banner. o.O ok.
then took 16 to wisma. walked and walked and walked to OG. then to cineleisure.
ate, walked. walked. & crapped throughout the whole journey. hahaha! yup.
went to bm mac to pass janice her cap. saw fionacyx, jianwen & that potential distinction holder, liong huai ao. seriously he super chiong. (starts to ponder.... so what on earth am i?) 
DONE. (: 

( Pictures for the week!(: )

TMR and the rest of the days. to stay at home and work. keep working.
JIAYOU, jiaxin(: